Reapers and Angels Page 11

  William said with a wry grin. He wasn’t too averse to getting kinky with Sebastian, but he did love Kingsly.

  “Well that will happen over my dead body since Calis will kill me if I ever have sex with a male again that is not him. I can read your thoughts too William so no getting kinky with this Angel. However, Christian is not averse to being kinky with you, Kingsly no, but you definitely.”

  Sebastian stated with a grin making William stop short and turn white. William pretty much hated Christian.

  “Oh, come now, Christian is not so bad. I have had him and I have to say he is not a bad lover. He is a bit rushed when it comes to sex which if I had more time and Calis’ permission I would teach him much. If I had Calis’ permission, you would be in trouble William, but I love Calis.’

  “I am going to tell you something secret about Calis and if you tell another soul I will kill you with your own scythe. I figure this way we can be even.”

  Sebastian looked at William who was completely frustrated since he did not know what anyone would see in Christian. The man was a puffed-up snob who never smiled.

  “Fine, but I know I could have showed you much more passion than that bastard.”

  William said as they neared the waiting room for the board.

  “I am sure you could have William. It is something about being around your own kind that I am sure you understand. Christian was a demon like me and as an Angel our brotherly bonds are even stronger.’

  “Angels and demons go through periods of intense lust where we will literally fuck each other until it fades. Calis could not handle this kind of thing. I really don’t know what I am going to do when it occurs again. I guess hope that Christian will be able to control himself since it is hard for me to do so. It is the only time I will probably ask him to bind me since we tend to lose all sense of reason.’

  “I might have to bind him as well; it all depends on control and when three of us are together constantly with only one woman it tends to get a bit rough.”

  Sebastian explained and hoped William would understand.

  “I see. Perhaps I could help.”

  William said since he would love to help with Sebastian in an instance like this and he knew Kingsly would go nuts if Sebastian was having a sexual high.

  “I would, but I made a promise to Calis. Calis is very strong emotionally to the point there are days it almost seems he has no emotions. He controls all he feels and takes pain somehow changing it to use as a weapon against everyone or everything that gets in his way. Other times he uses it as a tool to keep from feeling anything for anyone. Calis can be cold hearted and extremely cruel. He orders to kill without remorse or fear.’

  “There is a darkness to my dearest love that I adore. I am drawn to him and his darkness as well as his purity. Calis is completely pure in all ways even though it is said he is tainted. I do not see his taint.’

  “What I have to tell you though shocked me to the core and I am telling you this out of confidence it will never be uttered to another soul. Calis confessed for the first time in years his hurt at my actions. When I allowed myself and Christian to be intimate it damn near destroyed all I love in Calis.’

  “Calis never says things like hurt. He says things like betrayal, but his mind uttered the word wounded to me. I would rather stab myself in the heart a thousand times and kill myself than harm my true love.’

  “Even when I was to take his soul he said, ‘be as brutal as you like Sebastian’. He said those words to me offering himself like a sacrifice to me with no fear of pain. Not once did Calis fear me and at that moment when I went to take his soul I knew I loved him.’

  “I of course adored him for years and little did I know that ended up being truly love I felt for him. Slowly this old demon fell in love for the first time in my life. I could not be brutal with him.’

  “I would kiss him, caress his beautiful face and hair removing that blasted eye patch that kept everyone from seeing our bond than devour his soul and spirit. In my naivety, I wanted to also keep his body with me somehow keeping it pristine and pure.’

  “You see to a demon a soul you love is more than a meal, it is the ultimate fate that eventually kills us. It makes us into Angels; combining our souls as together we travel to the nirvana of paradise together.’

  “Anne knew this and as cruel fate would have it denied this demon his last meal. My last rights had been taken from me and Calis became a demon. I had starved myself for years for this one soul. I was already to the point of dying which was why after this was done I had to take souls that were not worthy of me and ended up giving souls to Calis that were not worthy of him. We were barely surviving, but I never told Calis this. I did not want him to know the cruel fate that befell a demon who did not feed properly.’

  “You already saw the one that had suffered this. He was the one who kidnapped Calis raping him trying to possess him and taking souls even from demons. A starving demon becomes an animal killing all its wake. It had to die and in some ways, I feared for myself as well as Calis.’

  “I knew I could survive on one soul a year, but since I had starved myself I was getting closer and closer to the insanity which made me hate my dearest love. I also loved him intensely however his soul would tease me at night, seduce me, and beg me to be one with it.’

  “I was a slave to my passions and to my Master. Calis owned me and even when he took souls he never understood the agony I felt. He never seemed to know what it was like to not be alive, but of course he was a baby demon. He would forever be a baby demon and then to hear him say a soul was nothing to him other than a meal like mere food and drink made me practically fall apart. Calis did not know the significance of a soul to a demon and how the only times I felt even slightly alive was when I was near his soul, when it talked to me and touched mine.’

  “That very night Calis cursed me with his deep love and set me free at the same time. To be honest I hate being an Angel, but that is because no one had any idea of how bad it used to be before I became a demon.”

  Sebastian said and then recalled his past as William sat with him in the waiting room listening to his story.

  “Angels were cursed to follow all of God and Archangel Michael’s orders. They were so self-righteous and we had no free will. We watched humans from a distance and our only job when I was born was to fight Lucifer as well as his demons. We were not told why, we were just to do our jobs and shut up about it.”

  William looked appalled, curious, and felt for Sebastian. He did not know things were that bad.

  “Heavenly Father did not explain anything to you?”

  William asked since he had such respect for God since that is what they did their duty for.

  “All his orders were given from Michael. I watched as my brothers and sisters were torn to shreds coming back with their wings practically torn off, wounds that looked horrific, and shouts from their brothers and sisters on revenge. It was a bloodbath and I was in the middle of it. A few of us questioned why we kept fighting this war and were told to keep our mouths shut. We were told we were soldiers for God and that should be good enough for anyone.’

  “Any questions, any differences were shut down the second they came up. Finally, I had enough of it and it happened for a few of us like Christian who went through the same scenario except sooner than I did. He fell hundred years earlier than I did.’

  “God’s General was not giving me any answers and after a while you get tired of being told to shut up. I went to a demon who was wounded on the battlefield and asked him before I went to kill him why he served Lucifer.’

  “The demon’s last words were a laugh. He wanted free will and to live. He said he was in torment, but it was better than being an Angel.’

  “I asked what free will was and he laughed at my naivety. When he told me, it was the right to think freely and be your own man, I was tempted. I of course killed him, but I stood there for hours looking at his body which for a time had been human looki
ng. It had not been ugly or repulsive until his death then I noted black feathers floating everywhere.’

  “My brothers and sisters came for me, but I told them I was going to search the area for more demons. They let me be so they could go report their findings.’

  “Instead of killing demons I started talking to them disguising myself as a human until one found out what I was and threatened to kill me. I asked him to take me to see Lucifer. I wanted to know things, be something different, and to have this free will. I still wanted to cause fear as an Angel to my foes, but at the same time I wanted answers. So, I went to Lucifer who chuckled when he saw me.’

  “Lucifer called me a baby and told me to go back home before I hurt myself. Lucifer was beautiful even with his horns, forked tongue, and cloven hooves. He was a demon king with black dragon wings since he had completely evolved.’

  “Lucifer knew things, a lot of things. He was smart, cunning, and a complete bastard. I loved him the moment I met him. Lucifer also lies a lot, but he gave me more truth then I ever had in years. Lucifer was the first rebel and I came to worship him.’

  “I know that may seem shocking to you, but it made perfect sense to me. I wanted to be him, to rule the demons and become the most beautiful creature in hell.’

  “After weeks of begging and spending time in his bed, I became a demon. Lucifer did not want me to leave, but it was so miserable in hell. Hell is really a horrible place, almost as bad as heaven had been for me.’

  “For years, I was Lucifer’s favorite. Apparently, I was not the only one, but at the time he was quite persuasive and one night he threatened to chain me to his bed. I escaped that night deciding I learned enough and I was going to use all I learned to become Lucifer.’

  “Unfortunately, Lucifer sent demons after me and Angels now saw me as a direct threat. I was killing brothers and sisters on both sides just to survive. I had chosen my gender unlike them and evolved. As a demon, I was a newer species than Christian and much faster than he is.’

  “I learned to kill anything in my way and made stupid contracts with people just to survive the first few years. Reapers, Demons, and Angels were all pissed at me. Hell, Lucifer was furious with me. I killed more people in those first few years than anyone imagined. I was the cause of most plagues killing off whole villages, destroying crops, and seducing attractive beings.’

  “Angels, demons, humans, and even a few grim reapers I won’t mention fell to my charms. Lucifer taught me well, almost too well and I was a Master at all things or so I thought. That was when Lucifer himself left hell for one day to find me. He dragged me kicking and screaming back to his lair.’

  “I was chained to his bed for days, months, possibly even years. I cannot remember for certain, but it seemed to be a fucking long time. In hell, you cannot devour souls and you are thirsty, hungry, in constant pain, and it is hotter than you can possibly imagine with Lucifer keeping me in this human form with my black wings calling me his beloved.’

  “I was raped constantly not only by him, but by whomever he considered important to him if he was trying to impress someone. It did not matter if they were ugly or not I had to bear them all. That is part of the reason I will not dive into hell again although I would take hell over heaven any day if things were the same as they had been.’

  “Not knowing things is worse believe it or not over being tortured daily. Of course, Lucifer had his moments where he showed me tender care and played like he loved me. I was merely a pretty toy to him.’

  “When I escaped the second time, I was so glad Lucifer found another toy and this time I was much more careful although I still killed Angels, Demons, and Humans. My whole life had been about killing. It was second nature to me although I also decided I would learn to become a gentleman. I loved the lavish lifestyle of a gentleman, but it did not serve me well for my contracts. I was still getting mediocre souls.’

  “I fell into a crowd where there was an old man who was a servant of sorts and learned the trade of becoming a butler living in a fancy mansion and having things that people only dreamed about.’

  “I wanted things and to clean things. I found pleasure in learning what I could from the man before he died and taught others finding out other demons were doing the same. Because we were Angels once we enjoyed cleaning and making things beautiful. We naturally were good butlers although a few of us still did not know everything about running a household.’

  “Soon I heard the call of a soul. It was innocent and being tortured by several people. There was a wish being made and it called out to me. It was not like any soul I had ever encountered. It said my name and I immediately went into action creating the contract and doing what came naturally to me. It cried out and a boy cried out to kill everyone in that room. He wanted me to kill for him, kill possibly hundreds of people.’

  “I was thrilled down to my toes. I found something, someone like me. I found a perfect soul, one in a billion humans. He called me and wanted me out of thousands of demons. We felt each other through a connection like no other.’

  “When I got to the boy his left eye was damaged with my contract taking over his eye creating a new one, a demon eye. I gleefully killed everyone in that room slowly and painfully like he wanted carrying a frail little boy with soft as silk slate hair out of that room with everyone dead on the floor that harmed one hair on this child’s head.’

  “When I stepped out into the light, I saw the face of an Angel before me. The boy I had in my arms I swore was a little Angel and beautiful with the softest of flesh. It was hard to believe this child’s soul was so very powerful and yet he lay like a mere babe in my arms.’

  “I should have run. I should have left him to his fate. I was starving, but I could not let him go for the life of me. That was the day I met Earl Calis Midnight and fell in love.”

  Sebastian said with a smile as he recalled that perfect day. The fumbling child with the bandage over his eye for days before Sebastian bought him the eye patch and took care of the child he would love for the rest of his life.

  “Calis was exceptionally cruel and cold to everyone including me for a time. I was not fast enough, I was not good enough, and my cooking was something left to be desired.’

  “I was a mere butler and he was a Lord. I was his servant he bid to do whatever pleased him at the moment. It was like sheer torture and I loved it. Just being around Calis made my life worth living. I had a plethora of things to do, places to go, and I got to torture him on occasion. I left him to kidnappers once in a while letting them torment him a bit before saving him.’

  “I kept cats in my wardrobe he knew about, but pretended were not there or never said anything about them. I loved cats, always have and for no reason other than the fact they are perfection themselves. Calis knew I could never control myself around felines and I pretended not to notice his weaknesses such as his asthma and his constant nightmares.’

  “I fell in love with little Lord Midnight the spoiled brat, the brilliant young man, the stubborn boy, and the cold calculator of revenge. I loved every part of him to the point I was obsessed with him.’

  “I was starving, but it did not seem to matter to Calis. He would simply torment me and not think twice about it. He knew I hated dogs and made me care for a damn dog. Calis made me do things I would not have done for anyone else. We told each other things we would say to no one else. I became his teacher in the arts and everything I ever learned from humans.’

  “Calis became my child, my protégé, my whole life. To this day, he still is my weakness and I would do anything for him. I remain an Angel only because for some reason Anne said things have changed for Angels and so far, I have seen they have. However, if it ever goes back to the way it was I will sacrifice myself and Calis to Lucifer knowing that we can escape him to find peace in our lives.’

  “William, I cannot promise to always remain an Angel if God forces me to be a simply killer with no purpose again. I won’t live by being given orders with no r
eal reason behind them. I am free now, but how long will it last?’

  “The only person who has truly given me my freedom is Calis of his own will and because of his love for me. I would rather die with him than live as a slave to anyone. Do not expect me to be kind to other demons or even Angels unless things have truly changed on both sides. There is a war going on and I do not plan on being in the middle of it anymore. I want nothing to do with it.’

  “You as a reaper are in the middle too. It isn’t right. Who really gives us the right to judge? You assumed because I was a demon I was vile and disgusting. I still have the heart of a demon since Angels do not question, they obey. Could it be that I am more human than immortal? Anything is possible, but I will tell you this much I will be bound forever to Calis. He allows me women, but if he wished for me to suffer not having one I would do that for him. If I feel a surge of lust, I will be tied to the bed to keep from hurting my beloved and damn me to hell for taking him as a child. I never saw Calis as a little boy, I saw him as me, as the missing part of myself.’

  “I will never regret the night we made love when he felt my true demon form show him the love I had for him and when without fear he looked upon that form still loving me when I fought off that vile beast with you and Kingsly. Calis loves me for who I am and I will be damned if anyone takes that away.’

  “If you want me to have your watch, I will take it. However, I will not promise to remain a slave to anyone. So, it is up to you now. Do you really want me to have this gift or are you going to damn me if I make a choice that you may not like?”